My First Relationship

God has blessed me and it’s just so obvious these days. I am busy and free, no matter if I'm coming or going it is in Jesus I reside. Today slept in and missed Sunday school. Part of me wanted to feel bad. But not going did probably as much good as showing up and not having my heart into the talk, or being distracted by being tired. I feel God's hand at work in the activities in my life namely my work, my relationships, BSF, and Youth Group.

Lately though I've noticed that it is me who is moving faster, praying faster, over-booking and yes it's for the Lord and yes it keeps my sin away. But Satan is sudden and bombards from multiple outlets, and I know he's conspiring, calculating and over-confident. I say this because God's gift to us, before life itself, is Jesus Christ. Him alone defeats Satan, evil and my sin. Right now I just pray for a re-centering a regrouping. So that Satan will be duped, shamed and fail in my life. I have no anguish of guilt from seeking out sin and committing them. Although I ask for forgiveness nightly, for actions and words which fall in the heat of the moment and reveal sin. What a glorious forgiveness is Jesus' shed blood. With faith in this Satan cannot win in my life even for those unaware sins I do.

My relationship with God seems like its taken a blow. Yes I'm learning memory verses, reading the Word daily. It just seems that as the blessings continue to occupy and preoccupy. Therein reveals a comfort: though life is faster, the zeal for my intimate relationship with Jesus operates slower. Plainly stated, I forget to turn to Jesus to say thanks and love and hold Him first as the giver in my life. So much blessing has been given to me that I feel unbalanced by it. You got to remember that as an unbeliever, I whittled my life down to believing that I was undeserving of everything because of what I did with the chances I had: failed.

So yeah I'm still nervous at what Satan might try and put me through. -He hasn't yet. In turning to Christ and pushing aside all the blessings I'm left to choose what's first: my girlfriend, my Job, myself, my God. I pray to hold loosely to everything save Jesus. God is first! First loved, first served, first advisor, first relationship in my life. I'm grateful at the work this entry has done in my life during the time I've written it. I hope reading this does something for you. Just when I thought I had a monogamous relationship, after five months of dating my girlfriend tells me she's had another boyfriend all this time: Jesus Christ. What a gift the world received on the first Christmas. Jesus the redeemer.