Dear Prayer Warriors,
A couple of prayer updates ago I asked you to pray for God to reveal His plan for Anna’s healing; whether it was to be in her lifetime on earth or with Him in heaven. I have been cautious to address the answer because I feel like God hasn’t given me a “yes” or “no” but rather a sovereign “not yet”. Back when I had god in a box because I tailored him to my beliefs, he was always certain to tell me “yes” or “no”. But now that I know the Living God as my Father, He frequently answer my yes/no questions with a “Not yet”. He draws me in, to depend on His lead, growing trust and surrender in me. The fear of the Lord has shown me how foolish it is to demand God speaks to me about what I want, when I want; or worse, I fake an answer and say it was from Him. No God is too good, to true for any of that!
Since the God of the Bible has everything in His hands “and we know that in all things God works for the good of those who love him, who have been called according to his purpose” (Romans 8:28), a few thoughts worked into my heart thanks to your laboring for us in prayer.
Similar to my son’s eyes widening, shortened breathing, and his entire being bursting in excitement at the sight of me scooping up ice cream and landing it in a cone for him; so am I regarding the immanent return of Jesus Christ. Anna has taught me that waiting on Jesus deserves evermore longing, evermore wonder. I used to think about Christ’s return frequently in the first year of her life when enormous medical decisions needed to be made. I used to think “Jesus can just come now and redeem this because these options are terrible.” Instead of escapism, now I get thoughts of vindication at the implications of my Victor’s return!
next bit of learning comes from God’s attribute of transcendence. He continues to shine through. Our simple wish from Anna’s birth was that no matter what Anna is capable of, that God would glorify Himself and get the fame for Anna’s life. That she would bring people to Him. Our God is interventionist, dropping in from on high! Using the weakest to shame the strong because He inhabits here. Only God’s excellent transcendence can allow me to pray every night “thank you for not healing Anna today because you showed up”, then 8 hours later I wake asking “Lord if it pleases you and advances your Kingdom come heal Anna fully.” I have become blessed by these thoughts.
Doesn’t it fill you with satisfaction knowing that Anna will be healed according to God’s promises one day? Hallelujah. So “not yet” from God means He is building us up for Himself! I like to tell my children “WAIT!”, apparently God likes that strategy of parenting too.
Please Pray for:
-More refining, molding and shaping from the spiritual riches that “not yet” contains.
-Full healing of Anna.
-Thanks for not healing her yet.
-Our primary insurance (from Target) has denied Anna’s wheel chair, bath chair, and mechanical lift because they deem them as not necessary. I cant help but assume that they know Medicaid (Anna’s secondary insurance) will pay for those things. May God right these wrongs.
-Our Home modifications are stuck on the desk of the same person that sat on our vehicle modification two years ago. If you remember it took close to 5 months just to start dialog with her after contacting my governor. May God move this along because Anna is approaching 50 pounds so going up and down stairs with her is difficult.
-Increased ability to use her fingers and hands to hold items intentionally. Pray for a decrease in hand chewing. We are so thankful for Anna’s new and passionate OT!
-the botox injections she received last week to be effective in breaking her tone in her adductors and bicepts. That these steps would lead to walking rather than needing surgery.
-Anna’s brother Simon. May his heart and understanding to be filled with faith as he has been asking questions about Anna and trying to understand why she is so disabled.
-Continued health for our whole family.
Thank you!
The Currats